Casual Sex

I'm reading Diary of a Sex Fiend. God, I love this lady. Abby Lee. Probably isn't even her real name, she's hiding her true identity. Well, at least those of her conquests. She thinks about sex as much as a man, I am sure, but experiences it as openly and unabashedly as only few of us do if we are lucky enough to find that right person who enjoys giving and receiving pleasure and trying ANYTHING with us. God bless that union. I hope everyone experiences it at least once in their life, if not as often as possible. This woman does (and so, currently, do I. Thank you Jesus).

I have to admit that I am very pleased to have such a wonderful fuck buddy and have accepted his role in my life as such a pleasure bringer. Pleasure mixed with pain is a wonderfully sinful aphrodisiac, and I am gleefully addicted to this cocktail. I love knowing that whatever I can dream up, he will try or arrange. Nothing is off limits. And when he touches me I melt, quite literally, in his hand. Everything about him turns me on. And it's not that he is even that good looking. I mean, I have always thought he was, but my friends do not agree and sometimes I catch a glimpse of him and think, what is it about him that drives me wild?

I have narrowed it down to five things.

1. Forbidden fruit never tasted so sweet (though least likely).

2. Love at first sight/soul mate recognition (even if it's not forever, he had me at hello.)

3. Fantasizing over him for years and imagining him to perfection in his absence. Now that I have him I enjoy every electrifying moment.

4. The shape of his member, satisfyingly gratifying...

5. His subtle scent, animalistic as it is (most likely).

All I know for sure is that I am thankful for this gift from the Gods that we get the chance to be together when I am in my sexual prime. We have history, he lives down the street (10 miles is relevant here in Los Angeles), he makes me cum and he gives me space. This could quite possibly be the perfect relationship for me at this time.

Dear Abby pointed out the obvious tonight. Never have casual sex with someone you want a relationship with. Well, I have always been unconventional and am such with current affair... It probably wouldn't be a good idea for us to come out to the world anyway since I found out he and my ex really are best friends and my ex wasn't just saying that so I wouldn't date him.

So we have fantastic sex when he is not out of town working freelance and I get to reflect on it all and explore new adventures while he is away. One crazy sex filled and sleep deprived week on, three quiet drama free weeks off... we have our own weird balance and it works for now.